Wednesday, December 29

比儿♥你

比儿要大声地
向全世界说出偶得爱

这些日子
从比儿放弃曾经那漫长的感情
到回复单身
再到家庭出事
虽然比儿总是一言不吭
她却能看透偶的心声
默默地支持着偶

在比儿伤心难过不吃饭时
她会细心的慰问
在比儿默默哭泣时
她会静静的陪伴

偶们一起玩 一起疯 一起颠
一起血拼 一起努力吃书
把自己那颗赤裸裸的心交给了对方

她见证了比儿踏入新的一段感情
给了比儿满满的祝福
然而看着比儿受伤最深的人
也是她

唯有在她面前
比儿才能卸下防卫
让她越过那高高的围墙
接触比儿的心

感谢她
一直陪在比儿身边
无论是比儿痛了 伤了
累了 醉了 哭了
她对比儿不离不弃

没有她
比儿真的无法想像
上一个季节到底该怎么过

晶儿

或许这一年里
偶们都有受伤的时候
但比儿相信
偶们都有能力把伤害遗忘
有天
我们都能把放在一边的人事物
统统给放下

不管未来的日子怎么样
偶们都会为了自己
为了爱着偶们的人
让自己过得更好一些

偶恨偶爱你
但却依然想爱你
♥♥♥



Saturday, May 8



当你的眼睛在说话时


我的心正在哭泣


你眼里带出了某些讯息


让不想再掩饰心理的担忧


不想再逞强


总不确定我还能够靠你多近


到这里

爱被止住了


因为


原有的信心


不见了


Saturday, April 10


不想要华丽伪装

想卸下假装的坚强

想哭就哭

想笑就笑

上一次发自内心的微笑

是在何时


Friday, April 9

I wish I could tell U everytin deep inside my heart...

Tuesday, April 6

最近的我总是失眠
每天胡思乱想
担心这个那个的
情绪无敌低落
不知道自己怎么了
很多的事情等着我
不知道该怎么解决
心里七上八下的
有时眼泪几乎脱框而出
是不是无忧无虑惯了
所以当很多事情
接二连三的一起来时
我变得如此的不知所措
想为自己争取些什么
相对自己更好一些
但我却那么的无能为力


P/S:何时,我变得如此轻易放弃?得相信,一切掌控在自己手中,不是吗?

Saturday, April 3

人们常常因为害怕伤害
选择了不再爱 不再用心的爱
但为了不想有遗憾
我却选择了把赤裸裸的心掏出
毫不犹豫地去爱
我以为
我可以很坦然
我以为
我可以大声地对外公开
我以为
我们都做好了心里准备
但只不过一句话
就足以把我那一丁点的信心
给击败了
就连那满满的爱
也没法把我撑起
不想让大家为难
强忍泪水
硬着头皮伪装
只因不想让你看穿
但却心痛得想大声哭泣
如果
我可以不那么逞强
心是不是就不会那么难受
我想
我没自己想象中那么坚强
我也没你想象中那么大方


P/S:承认我没那么坚强,不过是一而再的逞强。。

Friday, April 2

Money & Happiness

Growing up, my family had money. There wasn't anything
that I couldn't buy and there wasn't any place that I couldn't go!
I was led to believe that having a big house, a fancy car, and lotsa
money was what u were supposed to strive for as an adult.
The bigger the house u had, the more successful u were and the
more respected u would be within your community.
That’s what I believed at least, until my family started
experiencing the tough times. I learned that having a big house,
a nice car, and lotsa money are not the things that make me happy.
Something important is that my family is in good health, all of
us could go thru the hard times together.

It is an oft-repeated axiom that money doesn’t equal to everything.
That’s why I used to think that money cannot buy happiness.
While this is certainly true, poverty will not buy Happiness either.
Some people become very wealthy, yet struggle to enjoy their lives.
On the other hand, some manage to go through their life with
very few money problems simply because they are able to make the
most of what they have. I will not say who they are.

A very good friend of mine told me that the more money u have,
the more responsibility u have. It just depends on what kind of
responsibility u really want. I will not say that all rich people are
miserable or all non-rich people are happy. In reality, there are
probably proportionally equal percentages of happy and unhappy people
in both groups. Ideally one should try to combine both
prosperity and happiness.

However, this isn’t something easy as different people might
have different views on money. As for me, money is something but
not everything as money can be the source of happiness but it also
can be the root of evil. Money itself is neither good nor bad.
It is the person who uses money that can be regarded as good or bad.

It’s april fool today and I’m being fooled badly by those who I used
to regard them as ‘family members’. Money doesn’t equal everything?
Is it so? Once again, I realised that I’m just too naïve to have such
perception while people around me are trying to show me the reality
of life. They had shown me how realistic human being can be and
how people will act when it comes to money issues. They proved to me
that it’s easier to say than to do!

Money doesn't GUARANTEE happiness, but it sure makes it easier.
And I guarantee, NOT having money is guaranteed to make you UNHAPPY!!

If giving up my dreams, my hope and my wishes to UK
would probably make all of U happy, I might do as U wish!
If this were the SURPRISE 21st birthday present,
I think I should thanks all of U who had fooled me badly!
Money is the root of evil for U to achieve ur HAPPINESS!
I learned something and I’m so regret on everything!
Pissed off!

Monday, March 29

❤ 一切尽在不言中 ❤

Thursday, March 25

AAAAaaaaaRrrRRHHHhhhh!!!!
Somebody help!!!!
Acnes are popping out on my right cheek
They're having party on my face
I've no idea on what to do n how to kill them -.-ll
According to Darrel, at least 70% of those
who're same age wit me
they will go thru the same process
which he refers to as hormone imbalance

BUT hoh....

This is the first time I see so much of acnes on my cheek
Normally they will appear on my forehead only
Or once in a while on my cheek but not that serious
I know this is a normal symptom but I juz couldnt accept it
>.<''



Being ' guai guai lui' for few weeks
Seems like my life is getting boring
Everyday wake up around 12-2pm
Have my BRUNCH at 3-5pm and dinner at 8pm
Besides lepak in Facebook, still Facebook
Lying on da bed all da time, like orang cacat
Kesian-nya...

Normally I'll be active only after 8.30pm till around 12am
It will be the time I spend on baby Jun
But today I get to see him for not more than 30 minutes
As he's so sick and tired


I told myself that I nid to sleep before 11pm
But it's 1.50am now and I'm still awake
Mayb I miss baby Jun too much
Even though he's notty and evil all da time
But sometimes he's so cute and lovely
Cant wait to see him and pinch his cheek kuat-kuat


Have to cont reading my Reader's Digest, ciao!




❤ bee ❤

Wednesday, March 24

突然的我
想把自己长长的头发给剪掉
把长长的刘海给剪平
疯了吗?
去哪来那么大的勇气啊?

Tuesday, March 23


Do u remember, u said to me

That u would wait, even 1 year or 10 years

I've been wondering and I've been hoping

However we got to be strong in a relationship

Tonight

Tears show that we were meant to be together

It shows how much u me

What I'm thinking about u?

It is what u've been thinking of the both of us

Believe me when I say my is true




★ bEe ★

Saturday, March 20

生日
那是什么样的日子?
为何突然会对生日感到那么的陌生?
生日快乐
我想我已忘了那快乐的感觉
.
我不爱过生日
我不喜欢生日
尤其是一生人一次的21岁生日
我讨厌3月
我讨厌31号
.
明明很累
但却选择了让自己胡思乱想
又让自己回到了失眠的日子
为何3月份
总是让人那么的不安?
P/S: 我的元气,你在哪?

Friday, March 19

ALBEE。不见了

三更半夜听着Hitz Fm
突然觉得有些不对劲
从前那个
。活泼 。
。好动 。
。化妆 。
。爱美 。
。爱玩 。
。爱Shop 。
。爱花钱 。
。疯Club 。
。坐不定 。
。不黏家 。
。乱摇乱晃 。
。到处乱跑 。
。不甘寂寞 。
ALBEE
不见了
!!!

Sunday, March 14

3月份
这本该是让我很愉快的月份
但为何这个3月
我的情绪如此的低落
是不是当人无所事事
而人生又看似毫无意义时
什么好心情都会离我而去
短短的两个星期
我似乎失去了很多人事物
失去了向来疯疯癫癫的自己
失去了身边一直很在意的朋友们
失去了以往自由自在 好动任性的生活
似乎牺牲了所有一切
每天早上七点为了某人而起身
每天时不时的把电话带在身边
每天拒绝所有人的要约
每天等待晚上九点的到来
每天十一二点就回家
每天都过着一样的生活
没想要埋怨 也不是后悔
但这一切的确不是我想过的生活
承认自己无法为任何人牺牲一切
想要的只不过是我心中‘正常’的生活
不想做什么都有所顾虑
但却又担心‘你做初一,我做十五’发生
一直希望有个人能陪伴在左右
一直希望有个人能视我为中心
一直希望有个人能对我细心呵护
一直希望有个人能在意的爱着我
这些 不都是我所盼的吗?
但为何我却觉得
自己承受不起这样的爱戴
总觉得 ♡ 仍是空空的
不安的感觉
让我喘不过气
开始在犹豫
这样决定是否错了吗?
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P/S: Happy White Valentine's Day ❤

Friday, March 12


怎么突然
失去了信心
怎么会有
动摇着的心